Bangkok 2011 – Post-trip musings.
Being in Bangkok gave me a lot of time to myself – ironically. Although I was with three dear friends, for the most part I felt alone.
And then I think I started getting abit over-sensitive and started thinking that perhaps leaving the company has caused me to drift from them. But upon reflection, I think the older I’ve gotten, the more reclusive I’ve become? It’s not so much that I’m excluded, more than I exclude myself. Which then leads me to feel alien from them.
I realised this because I noticed, upon reflection, that this feeling is not exempt regardless of which friends I am with.
Which makes me slightly concerned. But at the same time, it simply makes me tired of having to try and be engaged.
Maybe I’m better off all alone.
And being in Bangkok, seeing all these talented people, poor people… I feel that most of the times I take everything I have for granted. These people are trapped in their circumstances, with no way out.
If I could only be more appreciative for the most part, I think I’d be much happier. Not to say I’m not. But I could be more.
